Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Drug Addiction

So as most of you probably know (since I am such a whiner), I was in dental pain for the past three weeks or so. So I finally got my root canal this past Friday and the pain is now gone. Well, the major pain anyway. It still hurts a little but that is to be expected. And I am now pro-root canals.

People wonder how bad the pain must have been for it to make me actually like getting a root canal. It was bad. I was taking painkillers at least twice a day. Two pills at a time (which you're actually not supposed to do.. but SHHHHHH). That was the only way I could get through my day. Yes, I acted like a druggie. But I didn't think I was. Apart from the time I took Tylenol PM in the morning (wow, that was fun) and my accidental "OD" of my prescription painkiller (which was really fun), I never actually enjoyed the experience. I mean, I was grateful that the pain was numbed.. but that was it. I hate taking pills. Being unable to swallow pills (and trust me, I tried. I tried.), I have to either grind or chew them. And they taste horrible. I mean horrible. So I tell people they'll never have to worry about me becoming a druggie. I would never willingly chew pills for no reason. It's not fun fighting against one's own gag reflex.

But apparently my body never got that note. I have been having trouble sleeping at night lately, and I was wondering if it was my insomnia thinking about coming back. I've had insomnia before, it is no stranger to my nights. But I haven't had a problem sleeping lately, apart from the fact that it takes a while to fall asleep. But it's been like that for years, so not a big deal. But lately, I haven't been able to sleep. Just toss and turn. Sleep for half an hour every now and then. Mostly just lie in bed sad that I'm still conscious. I talked to Natasha today, and she thinks (and I agree) that it's because I stopped taking my painkillers. For three whole weeks, I had been taking painkillers right before I went to bed (because I wouldn't be able to fall asleep because of the pain), and I haven't been taking them since Saturday. And I haven't been sleeping since then. It makes perfect sense. My body had learned to depend on the painkillers to make my body drowsy and help me fall asleep. But I've taken the painkillers away, and now my body doesn't know what to do.

I have a body that is addicted to painkillers. Wonderful.

I wonder how long it will be before I can finally sleep again. Not sleeping is making my days even less fun than usual. Sigh.

Monday, November 13, 2006

Woulda Coulda Shoulda

Yet another missed opportunity is going to pass me by. First I let Danny come to LA and leave without meeting me and falling madly in love with me. Yes, the likelihood of him even seeing me at that huge concert was close to nil.. but I didn't even give him the chance. I rejected fate's attempt to bring us together and stayed at home. And now I'm going to miss Josh Groban.

Yes, Josh Groban.

I do like the man. Just because I never talk about him doesn't mean I don't like him. I just don't like him as much as I do Danny, that's all. But he's pretty cute. And has a damn amazing voice. DAMN AMAZING. So I went to Borders today to buy his new CD, Awake. I had a Borders Rewards coupon (those things make me spend more money than I normally would, damnit!) for the CD that expires today, along with another coupon that I needed to use to buy a book for one of my classes. So the deal is that he's coming to Borders tomorrow (yes, our very own in Westwood!) to sign copies of his new CD. He'll be there at 7 PM, but Borders will start handing out wristbands at 10 AM. What wristbands, you ask? Wristbands you get when you're one of the first 500 fans to buy the CD from Borders that morning, and these are necessary to even stand in line. And you will get 2 CD signings as a result. So I thought: that's pretty cool. I'll buy another CD, get both of them signed, and I could give one as a present. I have friends who love the man. It'll work. EXCEPT IT DOESN'T. Why? Because I have class from 9-12 on Tuesday morning! And I can't miss it because it's once a week and class is very important.

So yet another missed opportunity is passing me by. Lovely.

On a totally unrelated note, I would like to apologize for not blogging often. Not that anyone seems to care anymore by the lack of comments. But there's your apology anyway.